The main aim is to get the message across to the audience that they may feel the emotions and identify themselves knowing that they are not alone. Our battle is not against physical things that we actually see in our encounter.
With the desire to show that our hardest and greatest battles are not something we fight physically, but rather those feelings, emotions and scars we battle with that could not be seen by the human eye.Those emotions that are only felt but yet cause such a great impact on our life. This is my testimony and it talks about the spiritual battle we face dealing with emotions that at times not even we ourselves understand.

The battle becomes more complex at the moment when we we begin to war with emotions, feelings, scars and things that we cannot touch. That hunger for happiness when the clouds of darkness overshadow us and we are not able to control our minds or how we feel. Then inmediately we become numb not having the ability to fight and ashamed to speak about it.

Then God steps in and remind us that the only way that we will actually be able to conquer this spiritual battle is by preparing our armor with the equipment that he provides. I covered myself as a representation of the shame we go through not wanting to speak of our battles because we are blinded with a lie. When I took off the covering it symbolized that God finally took my shamed and gave me his armor to regain my power.

With the desire to show that our hardest and greatest battles are not something we fight physically, but rather those feelings, emotions and scars we battle with that could not be seen by the human eye.Those emotions that are only felt but yet cause such a great impact on our life. This is my testimony and it talks about the spiritual battle we face dealing with emotions that at times not even we ourselves understand.

Those long days but short night where we see darkness all around knowing that our spiritual battle is not against flesh and blood but the rulers of darkness of this world, principalities those things that are unseen but blurs our vision by blinding us, until we loose our sight on God. We become so concentrated trying to figure out how to feel different, how to be ourselves again and regain happiness that we stop praying, stop reading the word of God, forget that our faith is stronger than any mountain. Removing our whole armor until we realize that we could never defeat these clouds of darkness surrounding us or win this battle until we put on the Whole Armor of God. Because this is not a story it a spiritual battle.

Yulecsi Webster she helped me record the video.

A Battle of Silence

I wake up and find regret
because once again I did not achieve death
I wanted for God to take me away
but for some reason he wanted me to stay
Not another day I screamed and said
Just want to tear it apart and bury it away
Take all the joy don't mean to sound cliché.

The silence of the night
all my thoughts combined
Were just another demon that I could not define
it was killing me slowly,
to the point, I forgot about being holy
Nothing mattered anymore
Not even family, friends or the church doors.

Anxiety, depression all became friends of mine.
Nowhere to turn to just them foes in line.
I was drowning in pain
But my agony and sadness were not in vain,
Nor my life was anymore the same.
Dear silent me I did not intend to sink so deep,
But the giant surrounding me refused to retreat.

The war within was not of houses and cars
Neither the struggle of becoming a superstar.
I battled with emotion that could not be touched
People said keep your head up high
Cause it is not that tough.

It’s not that tough?
At least that’s what you think
What would you say if I told you?
I almost committed suicide
But God stopped me that’s how I’m alive.

Tangled in Disbelief
Clothed in stress
Can someone please take me out of this mess?
But hey listen, cause their comes the rest
A burden of problems and a shield of isolation
Instead of praying, I cried
Hoping for relief and consolation.

A storm of tears
Tornado of sadness
A shadow of darkness
Stole all my gladness,
Living in fear
Oppression of spirit
Bound for years with no goals to share

Smiling through the day
Broken through the night.
Scary thought, my life was a lie
I ended the day with a sigh
Tired, defeated because this giant, I could not defy.

Fighting a spiritual battle every day
Eventually, I decided to kneel and pray
God whispered equip yourself
With the whole armor
That's how you'll survive,
For all the equipment I will provide
So that you may live and never die

Wear your shield of faith every day
You will then quench all the fiery darts
Fighting to keep the enemy at bay
Do not forget your helmet of salvation
Continuing in prayer and supplication
The enemy will appear trying to give you an invitation
It’s not necessary God already made my restoration

Satan refreshed those wounds
Once again I felt lost and not found
My mind he intended to confound
But my savior stepped in and said
Be still; all your sins are gone
I then took out the sword stating
No weapon formed against me shall prosper.
And I know you hear it, it is the word of God
The sword of the spirit.

Endeavoring to gird your loins with the truth
Standing firm, not falling into a dispute
With the breastplate of righteousness
And the gospel of peace
You then will be the head and not the tail
With the armor of God
You shall prevail!

No more lonely nights
No more tears were shed
Because I wore my armor
Battled my way ahead
Graciously the old me was dead.

Anxiety depression were no longer friends of mine
Neither was my shame anymore inline,
God stepped in and made me shine
He called my name and declared this is your time.
Listen carefully my friend
If you feel discouraged this is not the end,
For he all the broken pieces will mend
If only in him you will trust again.

Prepare your armor, he will heal your scars.
This is not a story it is a spiritual war.