It was more than a half-decade ago, and life was interrupted with reality rejection. My mind was saying things would be fine, I struggled with the fixation on reality, but it appeared as derealization and dual reality. I was scared. I couldn’t able go anywhere alone. The pain in my mind and body simultaneously said something big was changing. I felt distracted, petrified and thanatophobia abducted me. Sometimes, it was too hard to handle the pressure from the capitalist society, social injustice, and poisonous minds around me. I told people closest to me, and no one responded positively or came up with a solution. I was all alone. The second half of the day always started with a mood swing and vertigo symptoms – I used to analyze the bigger purpose of life. I took many medical diagnoses, but the autonomous mind controlled the self. I changed the strategy to command the independent self to listen to me, and it was not easy to find a way of self-counseling. It took a significant time to heal myself and get back to normal from the depersonalization disorder. I found that love can heal wounds, whether for self-love to love the others in the world. It was a personal journey between my inner self and me. I re-created the feelings by photographing myself and making them appropriate with the assistance of technology.
We're indeed spiritual beings, and it is difficult to prove from the human's point of view due to the lack of proof. But most of the universe is dark, and our realm of knowledge is limited. During the journey with my life, I, on many points, found that spirituality is about submission of the self to nature or a form of God what or who can provide redemption. My project refers to reincarnation, the purpose of life, and regaining life through love.
Mohammad Rakibul Hasan
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