This multiple-self-portrait drawing represents the many faces of depression, an homage to my mom and her lifetime struggle with an unseen enemy. The smiling face masks the real emotions underneath, framed by quick multicolored blind contours representing how quickly her moods changed and the many masks she wore.
She suffered from chronic depression for as long as I can remember. This didn’t just happen one day. There was a time when she looked to the ruler of this world, the prince of darkness rather than the giver of life and light to solve her problems. Alzheimer's has taken over now but not before she put her faith in Jesus. One day the enemy will have no more influence over her, but for now, the struggle remains. Underneath, though, there is something I never saw growing up...the inexplicable joy of heaven!
Our battles feel real because they are, but there is more to it than meets our earthly eyes. “For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world, and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms.” Ephesians 6:12.
When we fight these battles “in our flesh” the enemy wins. There is only one way to fight spiritual fights--with prayer and surrender to Jesus.
It is a self-portrait, however, I want to acknowledge my mother, Paula, who inspired the idea. I made this for her.
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